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My sons death had now reached every shadowed stubborn area of my brain. 

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collin fitzgerld, grieving grandma, loss of child, loss of grand child, weathered raindrop -

She was the first one I called after my husband proposed, after I went into labor and after calling 911, when our son was dying.  My mom.  Her calm voice had been the foundation in so many moments and that day she didn't fail to deliver the comfort I so deeply needed.  She had no real idea that my call that Collin, her first grandchild wasn't just hurt, but "really hurt bad" would turn our lives upside down and force our family to see each other at our very worst moments for a very long time.  As much as I...

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A child loss walk to remember one, the very next year we remember two.

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First day after a long long wait

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Most people are just trying to get through life coping, just trying to cope with each day to literally...just get by.  I dream of harnessing my will to accomplish whatever purpose God placed my feet on this earth for. I often fall short of accomplishing this, but each morning I rise with the same expectation for myself. Because during these moments, after I've been knocked on my butt over and over and life literally sucks, when I'm in that pit of emotional darkness, that’s where growth happens. When fear is harnessed. Because when my feet hit the floor in the...

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